The new "breadwinner" Women!

These days it's not difficult to see who the up and coming individuals are in the US. Statistics show that more women are beginning to make more money and becoming the main financial providers in their homes. No longer are the days of a strong man we can rely on to hold down the household. More and more men are becoming "domesticated" on the home front while their wives take on the finances and bring home the bacon. Every woman would still appreciate having a man that has her "back." It seems that more men don't mind having their spouse take control. The women are still responsible for handling the bills, working a job, taking care of the kids and cleaning the home.

Thoughts carried

For those of us who have to try twice as hard to make life happen, the road to success can become long and disappointing and possibly even hopeless at times. The little steps we make that seem to hold some sort of promise don't always hold true. Maybe I'm just impatient. Maybe I still have other goals to accomplish. Maybe I'm just not ready! I carry the burdens of my mistakes and find it hard to move away from them. Still I continue this life and make decisions on only my beliefs. I am forgiving and this could doom me or free me. I am human, yet I forget this simple fact. Life is difficult but it can also be easy. If it's what we make it then why can we not control the outside forces? We all want happiness so why is it so difficult to grasp? I wish I were stronger. Without my mistakes, how would I have learned? My heart troubles me and has lead me down a road of sorrow. More sorrow than I bargained for yet I continue in belief that some day I can change that road and trees will grow along side it instead of the rocky desert I usually see. Please Lord, if this is what is not good for me then why is it still around? What do I not see? Please help me grow like a seed that transforms into a beautiful flower. I want my eyes to open like the petals of a rose and my soul to reach out like the leaves that grow from it.

The sky's the limit

Roller coaster, an emotional roller coaster! Riding in the cart. Up and down, around and around. Will my feet ever touch ground? I take a leap and head for a dive. Only God knows where my toes will touch and if or when my heart will stop. I continue on this path, taking all that drops from the sky. I look up and wonder why. Why am I the way I am.. Well, I know but now I have to try to change my thinking which destroys my mind. My heart weighs heavy with all my thoughts. I'm burdened by my own negativity which I can't seem to stop! This life is short and I must get a grip soon or I'll find myself at the end of my ropes much too soon...

To all who wonder

Everyday is like a new beginning, yet we do not embrace it as such. It is another chance at life, another day of the sun shining on our faces or the rain flowing down our skin. Everyday can be our last. We do not know. One hour from now, one day, one month, one year... Embrace everyday like it's a new beginning and the last day of your life. I preach what I have not yet reached but I am walking towards this in deed... We can only feel this ourselves, once we feel it, it will never elude us.

Life

The older I get, the uglier the world is to me. No body gives a damn about anything or anyone but themselves and all the tears in the world don't make the other person have sympathy for what they've done to others. Why are we even here? This life is crap and it's pointless because we all die anyway so what's the use? We are dead a lot longer than we're alive and even if we live to the "fullest" it doesn't make a difference because we all die. In 150 years, no one will give a crap that anyone before them did anything worth doing at all!

Hunger

I have a deep hunger for something. Something is missing in my life. I feel this desire burning in my soul and it's been burning for years and I can't quite figure out how to feed it! I try certain things but it's still not working. I will continue to search until I can find what will feed this hunger and once I do I hope it's something that will continue because I don't want this fire to burn out... What is it?? I need to know. I feel a sadness, a missing link and it's like I'm just floating through my life with no specific direction! Something's wrong or missing or not being done! I don't know. I just don't know!!

Great Christian Song: (by a man-took out some words)
Today I found myself, after searching all these years and I was lost when you found me here and I was broken beyond repair, it feels like I'm born again, it feels like I'm living for the very first time in my life!...

Dear Me

Dear Me,

You are more than you allow yourself to be. Ever since you were a child, you've always wanted to help other people. You've always found ways to do things that helped people be it giving advice, hanging signs in the convenience store windows, volunteering or just being there when someone needed you. Someone said they took an experience you went through and used it as an example in their life and it changed their life in a positive way. You have helped people and you don't even know it. You have such a big heart and you are a very loving, caring and considerate person. You have desires to do more with your life. You want to help people and live for a purpose for which you are still seeking. Go after it! Don't let one person in your life continue to make you feel down. With all the people who have come into your life and have gone and the things you have gone through and survived, you can do anything! Your life is great! You have your health, your son is healthy, your family is healthy and everyone you love is alive! Live like it! Stop letting one little insignificant thing bring you down. You are so much stronger than you have allowed yourself to be lately. Who is this person that you are at this very moment? What is the worse thing that could happen from this one thing? Well, the answer is this: YOU WILL LEARN FROM IT! Happiness is waiting for you, you just have to go and get it and stop waiting for it to come to you! It's not going to fall on your lap, you have to go and capture it! Feel it! Free yourself! Live like you are in love with life! Do it! You have to. There is no other option. You don't know how short your life may be. Why spend what ever time you have left in sadness? There are people who need your positive side, give it to them! Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you deserve the same happiness as everyone else does and mean it!

Life is too short, as you have heard from many people. Don't wait until you're sick, in the hospital, lose someone close to you or something bad to happen before you make yourself feel Alive! You are alive, you need to feel it, breathe it, live it, love it!! Do it today, don't spend the rest of your life looking for it, just do it. Be positive, think positive and all the negative things will fall away and your life will improve. You already have an example that it works. Just remember being 19 again, get that feeling back again and remember how good it felt to love yourself and to have hope. Everything seemed possible and everything you wanted, that was good, came to you! Make it happen again! Make it happen over and over and over!! You have to, there are no other options!!!

Be that person that you were meant to be. Bring out that person that you have always been and the happiness you have desired and searched for will be there. It's been inside you all along, you just have to grab it and pull it out!!

Life

We take a journey that we think is the right one to take but as we walk this road we begin to wonder where it’s really going. Most of us are not as strong and cannot see the signs to show us that we are taking the wrong paths. Or maybe we just choose to ignore them. So with this, we continue to go down the paths that lead us to continue questioning whether or not we are making the right decisions. Then we begin to wonder if it’s just us. Is it because we are incapable of being loved and happy? Yet, we continue walking this path until we reach a destination for which there are no other options. We have to turn and as we stand there and look down the path we think to ourselves, where will this path lead me to? Will I find the happiness I so ever lastingly seek? Can I finally find the love and happiness in my life for which I have searched so long? Then, the fear settles in. Will I spend the rest of my life alone? Have I done something wrong for which I can never make up for in this life? Why wasn’t I loved the way I hoped to be by this person who has now closed the door in my face? The end of this path holds no answers, only a door way to a new path. We must continue to travel though we know not what is in store for us. We hope that this new path will give us all the love and happiness for which we continue to search.

We continue to question ourselves. Have I been a person without compassion? Have I not loved enough? Was I selfish and lost in my own needs? What would the outcome have been had I done so? I know that I don’t want to know what the outcome would have been. What of those who have hurt us and of those who we have hurt? What of that person for whom left me in so much pain? Do they still...? Did they ever...? Inevitably, the feelings of that individual no longer matter or at least, should not matter because this person has taken themselves off our path.

So we carry on, traveling down a new road, in hopes of finding ourselves. Traveling, in hopes of finding the happiness we have been seeking. Our hearts hold discontent from a heart that has been broken. We walk alone and carry these burdens on our shoulders. Then we imagine that one day, one beautiful amazing day, we shall awaken from this nightmare! Then, in our hearts, will be the happiness we have been forever seeking and the burdens of love lost will be lifted.