Guess there was so much pain that I felt that it's hard to break free from the memory. My sadly written blogs show the pain I endured being around this person. How could we let one person get to our souls so deeply that their words devour our voices of reason? I longed to escape for so long and then finally I was able to and said I was done! Another woman gave me the chance for freedom! Thank you!
It changed me. So much suffering but I have come out a better person because I don't want to treat people the way this selfish man treated me. I didn't know who I was anymore. I felt like I wanted my life to end. I was weakened by his mind games. He admitted to being manipulative. It was insane!
Katy Perry:
You chewed me up and spit me out
Like I was poison in your mouth
You took my light, you drained me down
That was then and this is now
Now look at me
Kimbra:
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know
He thinks he's done nothing wrong. He blames me so much so and hasn't made any effort to correct his mistakes. No apology from him. But if the price to pay was the "damage" he's done figuratively and literally then it pays for itself because he's gone from my life. His attempts to return were unsuccessful, I moved on.
I know who I am and I don't doubt myself any longer. I have accomplished a great deal since this "loss" of baggage. Heavy baggage weighed me down. I am closer to my dreams everyday and my new love supports my decisions and never gives me a hard time about anything! :-)
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