Wake up Call

So just when you think you've got a good thing going... bam! It all goes crashing down. In one way or more. Seems to be my motto to live by. Not on purpose of course but I manage to make it that way. So, I find out that I am not working on a common interest now it's just a single, one sided interest. (I guess...) I can feel my heart skipping beats and weighing rather heavily with this news. Doing good with holding back the tears but choking on them instead. Not so surprising news but unexpected. It did come with some surprising news containing a completely false perception but not on my part. This is a double wake up call for me. I was working towards "our" future, a "common goal" but it's not the way I thought so now I can only work towards my own. So I will refrain from the "shared" interests because I now know that there may not be any "sharing."  When there is so much doubt against you then you are on your own. So...... that's the price I pay for former mistakes that still haunt me.